I recently ran into a problem looking for a babysitter to watch our two youngest from 1900 to 2200 on a Saturday night so my husband and I could go to an event that my derby league was hosting. Granted, the Warrior Games had an opening concert featuring Kelly Clarkson on the same night, and a majority of the base scored free tickets to see her. However, if it were any other typical night, it would still be difficult for us to find a babysitter.
At first, my husband felt like the time would probably not be ideal for anyone to watch our boys, but how many other parents have gone on date nights that were later than 2200? I know that my co-workers who have young children like us still manage to go out drinking and partying moreso than we do. I’d like to say that I would have no problem doing that, but I would feel bad leaving my kids to potential strangers while I go out and “play”. Also, I feel like I have an overall problem with having people watch my kids. Not just anyone can watch my kids, and its not because I view my children on a higher level that anyone elses (because I don’t). I think I just have an innate trust problem with people and I typically fear the worst… If you know what I mean.
This is nothing against parents who don’t have as much of a problem as I do with leaving their kids with a babysitter while they go out at night. In fact, I kind of envy them because they can live such a carefree life and can manage it. I don’t know, a part of me just feels bad leaving them behind and not taking them with me, although a dance club is usually not the best place to bring children. Maybe this is something that I should work on so I my husband and I can find some “us” time, or maybe I should just stick to how I am and just stay home with my family. Maybe its just me realizing I have to start acting like an adult and put those wild and crazy nights behind me. #AdultingSucks